Esto Es Terrible

As I write this blog, I would like you all to know that I am spending the second day of my preventive suspension. Yup, you heard me right, it is a preventive suspension and I would love to accept it if it is because of my poor performance at work but it's not. I was served to be in preventive suspension because my footage was seen on the CCTV camera possibly the day one of the managers lost his laptop. It's really hard to accept that I was accused of having such a possible involvement on that particular case and I can't help but feel angry not only to the management of TR but also to the owner of the laptop because if it wasn't for him and his stupidity I will not be in this kind of mess.

It was the night of October 6, 2009 when I was told to stand up from my station together with the other 2 guys from our team including my Team Manager and follow the rest of the management to a certain area where we were confronted and told to sign the paper for the preventive suspension. We were also told to pass a Notice to Explain within 48 hours which I just did and I'll be passing this later night. What the funny thing here though is that I don't even know when it got lost so I really have no idea what to say. Who took it? How that person took it? (whoever that I that I don't give a damn shit. Why my footage was seen on the camera? Well that is because the owner's location is no different than an ordinary employee's way that I guess it's not my fault if I have thought of passing on that way. Another thing I would like to point out is that when the HR told me that the days that we are in preventive suspension will be given us or be paid back to us once we are proven innocent of any involvement on that case. Well let me tell you darling, we are not talking about just money here, unless you haven't heard of the word dignity and morale. If you think that I am against money that's why I am against this preventive suspension then you are damn wrong. I don't care about the money, I can still get those things from other company but what I care most is my dignity and respect that I'll be getting from other people after they hear about this news. I don't know if it still proper for me to write this here but I'm really pissed off that I don't know where to burst it out.

By the way, the preventive suspension is 30 days in maximum. Such enough time I guess for me to look for another company better than what I have now.

Fresh from Nu Yohk!

I was working on one of my calls yesterday when it come to a certain point that I have to reach another department for a help just to get the issue resolve. It was then when I did a quick dial to my phone and waited for a person from another department to answer. A guy who said his name is Arthur talked to me about the concern that I have with my call and it’s funny noticing that we are talking about different things at the end of our conversation. I asked him where they are for he sound like someone native and he said that he’s in NY which I never doubt for their group are really based in New York. He asked me of my location and when I said that I am from Manila, Philippines and probably by surprise he said “KABAYAN”. I knew it! I said to myself, the person I’m speaking with is a Filipino from New York. We even talk about things as well as my customer’s concern in our own native language. I checked him from the corporate address and sent him a THANK YOU email for the help he provided me. Of course the usual starter conversation is what I made and that is how he opened up that he has a band and that they play their songs in US. It’s an all Filipino band/group that is based in NY that is about to release their album and it’s really great thing to hear that we have our kababayans who are starting to build their career in other place. I know this is a natural thing but what makes it unique is the experience to talk to them, exchange words with them directly and not just by hearing news about them. Below are 2 sites he provided me where I can see some of their pictures and listen to some of their original music.

http://www.facebook.com/pages/AVE/135921070504?ref=mf

http://www.myspace.com/avelane

Modesty aside, I’ve been member of a band before and do my stuff on the boards so I know a little thing about music. I listened to them and their sound can be compared to the other bands here in Manila like Barbie’s Cradle, Moonstar88, Mojofly etc. which are known to have a unique native rock ballad sound. I have nothing against with this type of music and I don’t say that I don’t like it, it’s just this genre is not my forte and that’s why I just listen to it depending on my mood.

Anyway guys, I present to you AVE, a Filipino group fresh from New York.

You guys Rock!!!

Thanks Arthur for allowing me to post your sites on my blog site. I hope whoever reads this spread the goodness of your music.

Clinical Depression Facts....

I followed what my friend told me about doing a research on Clinical Depression and guess what, some of the facts really points to my behavior now. I will highlight some of those symptoms that have been on my trace for the past few weeks but I don’t know if I’m really having this kind of depression or not. I guess I really have to see a doctor now.

Common Symptoms of Clinical Depression

There are different forms of clinical depression with different combinations of the following symptoms:

Physical:

* Sleep disturbances-insomnia, oversleeping, waking much earlier than usual

* Changes in appetite or eating: much more or much less

* Decreased energy, fatigue

* Headaches, stomachaches, digestive problems or other physical symptoms that are not explained by other physical conditions or do not respond to treatment

Behavioral/Attitude:

* Loss of interest or pleasure in activities that were once enjoyed, such as going out with friends, hobbies, sports, sex, etc.

* Difficulty concentrating, remembering, or making decisions

* Neglecting responsibilities or personal appearance

Emotional:

* Persistent sad or "empty" mood, lasting two or more weeks

* Crying "for no reason"

* Feeling hopeless, helpless, guilty or worthless

* Feeling irritable, agitated or anxious

* Thoughts of death or suicide

For more information, please log on to this site:

http://www.uhs.berkeley.edu/lookforthesigns/clinicaldepression.shtml

Wacky...restarting please wait!

At last, I was able to find a way on how I can sign in to my blog site and continue expressing things that’s on my mind. Well this past few months was a very tiring part of my life for I’m still in the process of learning new things about my new job here in THOMSON REUTERS. Time was so fast and I didn’t notice that I’ve been working here for 4 months now and I hope I’ll stay for a longer period of time (who knows I might!?)

Well, just to start things again here (after a long period of time of not writing) what is really on my mind now?

I already open this up to my best buddy Binchee yesterday and even to my Mom so I guess there’s no need for me be ashamed of this great nonsense problem of mine. For the past few weeks, I’ve been having this kind of desperate feelings that even leads me on wishing for my death. Why? That is because I find my life boring and lonely. I don’t know why and I guess it’s just me who really has an issue on this but that feeling got stuck on my mind and I can’t find ways to take it out. I even told my Mom that if only I don’t have my own family then I would have ended my life instead and she thinks that maybe I’m crazy but she understood me though and I thank her for that. My managers even told me to find things that could spice up my life like learning new things, taking martial arts lesson (duh!) or spend more time with my kids and for me those are really great options to consider. Someone even told me to buy a car so I could explore and have an adventure in my life but how much is a car so I’m thinking of buying a scooter instead but a lot of people think that it’s not a good idea for me to do (first person on the list, MY WIFE). I can’t think of any other things to do rather than to watch movies on my phone and that’s it. Honestly, I’m still covered by the shadow of this THING whatever you may wanna call this whole dilemma that I’m having and how I wish I could get out so I wouldn’t suffer the burden of having a crazy mind.

Well, I guess that’s it for now. I just want to bring this up to my blog ‘coz I want to know if other people have experienced this before or in the same feeling that I have now, so I know I’m not the only one! He3x! By the way, I read a certain article that if you want to make things a habit then you should start doing it and continue for 21 days and I’m on a fifth day for my no smoking campaign for myself.

Love Storeeiii....

I'm just sitting on my desk waiting for my time to log out so I browse on some my emails that I have in my outlook. Time is so slow that I was able to manage to erase some of those that are not needed and keep those who are. When suddenly this story bumped my eyes and I remember that I never had such time to read on this. At first all I thought is that it might be a great heart-warming story with probably few typographical errors but as I get along the story I notice one thing. I guess you better try reading it so you may know what I'm talking about. Happy reading..

Love Storeeiii....

We' ve been friends for a long time ago. We come from the same alma mother. Actually, our paths crossed one time on another. But it's only now that I gave him a second look. I realized that beauty is in the eyes. The pulpbits of my heart went fast, really fast. Cute pala siya. And then, he came over with me. He said, "I hope you don't mine. Can I get your number?" Nag-worry ako. What if he doesn't give it back? He explained naman na it's so we could keep intact daw. Sabi ko, connect me if i'm wrong but are you asking me ouch? Nabigla siya. Sagot niya, The! Aba ! Parang siya pa ang galit! Persona ingrata!!! Ang kapal niya!
I cried buckles of tears.Na-guilty yata siya. Sabi niya, isipin mo na lang na this is a blessing in the sky. Irregardless daw of his feelings, we'll go ouch na rin. Now, we're so in love. Mute and epidemic na ang past. Thanks God we swallowed our fried. Kasi, I'm 33 na and I'm running our time.
After 2 weeks, he plopped the question. "Will you marriage me?" I'm in a state of shocked. Kasi mantakin mo, when it rains, it's four! This is true good to be true. So siyempre, I said yes. Love is a many splendor. Pero nung inaayos ko na ang aming kasal, everything swell to pieces. Nag-di-dinner kami noon nang biglang sa harap ng aming table, may babaeng humirit ng, "Well, well, well. Look do we have here." What the! The nerd ng babaeng yon! She said they were still on. So I told her, whatever is that, cut me some slacks! I didn't want this to get our hand kaya I had to sip it in the bud. She accused me of steeling her boyfriend. Ats if! I don't want to portrait the role of the other woman. Gosh, tell me to the marines! I told her, "please, mine you own business!" Who would believe her anyway?
Dahil it's not my problem anymore but her problem anymore, tumigil na rin siya ng panggugulo. Everything is coming up daisies. I'm so happy. Even my boyfriend said liketwice.1 week agoHe's so supportive. Sabi niya, "Look at is this way. She's our of our lives."
Kaya advise ko sa inyo - take the risk. You can never can tell. Just burn the bridge when you get there. Life is shorts. If you make a mistake, we'll just pray for the internal and external repose of your soul. I second emotion.

Taking a big step in life...

Starting today I'm exactly counting 21 days and I'm out of SIEMENS. Yup, you heard me right, I haven't officially filed yet my resignation but my mind is all set unless I find something bad on the job offer that THOMSON REUTERS is gonna offer me on April 21st.
I know it's pretty much early to say but I feel mixed emotions on this big step that I'm going to make. HAPPY for I'll be looking forward to a whole new challenge that will give me better opportunity to whatever perhaps I wanted to be plus the fact that it gives out better pay, how much? Nah!! figure it out guys, I won't tell, besides who wants to settle for something less, right? Well, also I feel SADNESS in my heart because I'm going to leave some great people and a great account though my task are pretty much hard. After 3 years of my stay with SIEMENS I'm moving out because I wanted to explore new things, be on a different place plus of course experience a better pay. It's pretty much normal I guess for a family man like me to be not contented on what I'm earning now for I do think of my family's future every now and then. To send my kids to a better school and give them a better life is what have my main goal since I became a father. If I will be given a choice I really don't want to leave SIEMENS especially my NIKE family for they really are the one who makes me feel that I'm important. I never felt this kind of importance in my other jobs that's why this decision is very much tough for me to do. And to all my NIKE family, long live the account and thanks for all the memories, damn I will not shed a tear, not now. Huhuhu =(
Well, I just hope that GOD will still guide me on this new company that I'll be working with, same guidance that HE has given me while I'm staying here at SIEMENS. Until now, I don't have any idea on what would I write in my farewell letter but surely I'm gonna miss my NIKE FAMILY.

Hahahaha...is all I can say!!!!

Well it's weekend in the US that's why I am so wasted with my work. Too many retail escalations and urgent cases. Oh geezzz...I'm dead. I can't even open my mouth to talk anymore. Good thing still I find sometime to read things over the internet while working with a store. Anyway, despite of my most tiring day this one really tickles me a lot and even made me turn my phone on mute and laugh for few seconds just like a crazy man who saw something really funny. Enjoy this guys:

Bill Gates Goes to Hell
Bill Gates dies in a car accident. He finds himself in purgatory, being sized up by St. Peter.“Well, Bill, I’m really confused on this call; I’m not sure whether to send you to Heaven or Hell. After all, you enormously helped society by putting a computer in almost every home in America, yet you also created that ghastly Windows ‘95. I’m going to do something I’ve never done before in your case; I’m going to let you decide where you want to go.”
Bill replied, “Well, what’s the difference between the two?”
St. Peter said, “I’m willing to let you visit both places briefly, if it will help your decision.”
“Fine, but where should I go first?”
“I’ll leave that up to you.”
“Okay then,” said Bill, “Let’s try Hell first.”
So Bill went to Hell. It was a beautiful, clean, sandy beach with clear waters and lots of bikini-clad women running around, playing in the water, laughing and frolicking about. The sun was shining; the temperature perfect. He was very pleased.“This is great!” he told St. Peter. “If this is hell, I REALLY want to see heaven!”
“Fine,” said St. Peter, and off they went.
Heaven was a place high in the clouds, with angels drifting about, playing harps and singing. It was nice, but not as enticing as Hell. Bill thought for a quick minute, and rendered his decision.“Hmmm. I think I’d prefer Hell,” he told St. Peter.
“Fine,” retorted St. Peter, “as you desire.”
So Bill Gates went to Hell.
Two weeks later, St. Peter decided to check on the late billionaire to see how he was doing in Hell. When he got there, he found Bill, shackled to a wall, screaming amongst hot flames in dark caves, being burned and tortured by demons.“How’s everything going?” he asked Bill.
Bill responded, with his voice filled with anguish and disappointment,“this is awful! This is nothing like the Hell I visited two weeks ago! I can’t believe this is happening! What happened to that other place, with the beautiful beaches, the scantily-clad women playing in the water?!??? ”“That was a demo. A trial Version.”