Office boy working in morning shift...so boring

Updates...well not that much good thing as I can say. My Lola is still ill and things are getting worst this time. She is out of the ICU yet most of her systems are failing and now her blood pressure is going down which should be good but not for it crosses the border of a normal measure. I really wish "BRO" can do something about it or even at least ease the pain that she feels right now.
On Wednesday, I'll be attending the graduation of my eldest daughter and I'm very much excited to see her on stage, getting her diploma (certificate) for completing Kindergarten level. Flashback!!! Hahahaha...I remember when I was on her age, I used to join contests and received the Most Outstanding Student award for the whole Kinder Class in our school, same school where my eldest is right now. That was a little bit of a pressure for that brings out my parents having high expectations on me for my upcoming grade school years. I actually told my daughter that I don’t care if she is in the honor list or not but as long as she has good grades then I’m good with that. I really don’t want my daughter to feel the same pressure that I have felt before that’s why I really don’t want her to be in the honor list. For me that doesn’t make any sense, after all the real fight is in college. I don’t know what gift I’ll be giving to my eldest for I’m really broke right now but of course as parent I know I should do something about it and so I could show her that I acknowledge her perseverance and hard work.
Honestly, I really wish I can have both my kids be transferred to private schools for I know that the way of teaching private schools provide is higher or let say better than way teaching is being done in public. I don’t know if you agree on that but I’ve experience that before and I’m telling you, there are some times that I really wish study on a private school. Well, they say that this is usually nonsense for everything boils down to the child itself which I find to be fair enough fact.
Ah, its 4:30 here and I feel a small pain in my head for I’m fighting my sleepy feeling here in the office. I really don’t want to smoke that much for that wouldn’t help at all. I just want to take a nap but I can’t do that on my station for there’s a lot of EXPATS walking around came all the way from Siemens Germany. What a bad day?! Well, I better finish this for now…..

My Granny is at Danger Zone

Just right now I got an update from my mom that my Lola (grandmother) was just transferred from the ICU to the charity ward of UERM. Just to give you a background of this incident, she just finished 3 series of operations because of a complication found in her large intestine. It was then last week when she was discharge from the hospital and right after few days at around 3AM, she complained of having a hard time to breath that's why she was rushed again to the same hospital and was directed to the ICU area.I really feel bad about this for she was the one who took care of me, watched over me when I was growing and always defend me from my mother (you know how it usually happen that our grandparents turns out to be our attorneys when it comes to a trial versus our parents?!).

Well, things come and go and I have to accept the fact that Lola is not that kinda young to bare the pain that she is suffering right now. This is truly a one big question that I wanted to ask to some people, would you fight to make your love one live despite of the fact that he/she is suffering too much pain and he/she can't bear it anymore or would you let go and let that dying person wait until his/her time is over?

Most people say that it’s better to take a chance when it comes to these kinds of situations but if we talk about practicality, would we consider this as a correct statement? Probably yes if you are wealthy enough and you can support all the expenses but what if you're not? Does that start the final countdown?Well it's true that life is just like a rosary that's full of mystery and death is like a thief at the night, you'll never know when it's going to attack. I just hope that my Lola could still survive this phase of her life and she can celebrate her upcoming birthday on the 15Th of April.

Dare to Trade....?

Today is what 03/17 9:53PM here in the office and it's my so called last day for I'll be off in the next 2 days. Honestly, I'm not feeling well 'coz I have been hit by the pouring rain when I picked up my eldest daughter from her school.

I honestly don't listen to the radio that much and if I do I make sure that I'm just listening to either light rock or the home radio station 'coz they play cool and relaxing music. But all along I thought that radios are there just keep us relax and that's about it. Well, I guess I'm wrong until I listen to these 3 guys who's been talking about topics under the sun which is pretty much interesting to listen to. My shift ends at 6AM and I see to it that I listen to their show on my way home to keep me awake from the night shift and guess what these guys are effective morning delight. By the way, to those of you who can read my blog and put some comments on it, I'm taking up this chance right now to plug their show, goodtimeswithmo every morning at 6-9AM.

Ok, let's go to the real part of this blog that happens to be a good topic they opened up. One big question that you may want to think before giving out your answers…

"WHAT IS THE THING THAT IS BETTER THAN SEX?" or let's have it this way I guess, "WHAT IS THE THING THAT YOU CAN TRADE INSTEAD OF HAVING SEX?" "AND FOR HOW LONG WOULD THAT BE?"

Example, if I can bring my family to Hong Kong Disneyland, with a pocket money and free accommodations then I can stop having sex for a month or two.

Now let see what you got on your mind!!!! Hahahaha....

My fight 'til the end....

Wag Ka Ng Umiyak
Sugarfree

Wag ka nang umiyak sa mundong pabago-bago
Pag-ibig ko ay totoo
Ako ang bangka
Kung magalit man ang alon at panahon
Sabay tayong aahon

Chorus:
Kung wala ka ng maintindihan
Kung wala ka ng makapitan
Kapit ka sa akin (kapit ka sa akin)
Hindi kita bibitawan

Wag ka nang umiyak mahaba man ang araw
Uuwi ka sa yakap ko
Wag mo nang damdamin
Kung wala ako sa iyong tabi
Iiwan ko ang puso ko sayo
At kung pakiramdaman mo'y
Wala ka ng kakampi
Isipin mo ako dahil
Puso't isip ko'y nasa iyong tabi

Kung wala ka nang maintindihan
Kung wala ka nang makapitan
Kapit ka sa akin (kapit ka sa akin)
Hindi kita bibitawan
Hindi kita paba-bayaan (di kita paba-bayaan)
Kapit ka... kumapit ka...

As of this moment, I feel a real great pain in my head probably because I haven’t got enough sleep and I have to work on a night shift so I have to fight for this damn called dizziness. Anyway, I heard this song before and saw the video for quite few times already and I would say that Sugarfree is one hell of a genius writing this one. I don’t know what’s inside Ebe’s mind when he wrote this nor his feelings when he made this but what I can say is that he feels a real great feeling that a truly, madly, deeply in love person would feel for his/her partner. I even almost shed a tear when I first heard the song for it really captivated my feelings as well. Aarrgghhh…if I made it first I probably have my wife on my head while working on this one because I wanted to tell her that after all those foolish things I have done in the past still I wanted to say I LOVER HER and that I will never let go of her no matter what happens. Regardless if she has problems of her own, this song will tell her that I’m just here by her side supporting her and give her the love and respect that she truly deserves. I remember that time when I did a foolish mistake that I almost lost my family (kids and my wife), that time when I looked at my wife crying every day and night, and it crushes my heart so bad that I wanted to reverse everything as quickly as I can. But of course, things are not that easy to say and undo; mistakes happens and I have to learn from it. May not be easy for me but I know that I have steps to take in order for me to reach that great feeling of Nirvana with my family. This song also reflects an idea that a man will never leave that one great woman of his life even though the whole world has taken its back on her. That the man will stay forever on her side and grow with her, die with her. I guess that’s the way I wanted to live right now, not with somebody else but only with my wife. It’s just awful to realize that even if she has the chance to see this, I don’t think it will change the reality that I broke her heart and her trust reason why I have to prove myself to her again. Somebody even told me that if I do really love my wife then I have to eat my pride, take the step #1 again and be patient enough to the consequences of my stupidity. I just hope that I still have the chance to win her back again not only as my wife in-title but as my wife as a whole. My best friend, my partner and my everything….

Just hold on wacky, we are getting there...

Beer mixed with Camaraderie….Hahahaha, what a blend?

It’s really crazy how people usually manage to talk things over a bottle of beer. For me, I can’t really explain even from my own experience how great this wonder drink is; that it has its own magic that can either fix fight, make people fearless and sometimes crazy that it brings out peoples most emotional side (I mean talking about moments of tears and laughter). Well probably because of the spirit I guess.

Just like my best buddy BINCHEE. Although we really don’t drink that much nowadays because of our unlikely schedule, mixed up with the high secured system of my wife and mom, he always make sure that he tries to catch me up every now and then and so he may know if I’m available for a drink or not. Damn, I can’t even remember when our last session was, probably last February if I’m not mistaken, the day when my brother got married. And that was what, a month…I can’t believe it myself; I haven’t drink for a month already, geezz….is this me? Well, I guess I get use to the way my wife and mom guarded me so, yes this is me now. But I bet they know how much I miss having a drinking session with my best bud, well I wish!
Too much stories and reasons, what’s inside the session by the way? Well, to introduce my buddy first, Vince a.k.a. Paul (hey, Paul is part of his first name!!! I usually call him Paul that’s why) is a man with a good heart just like me; different but strong principles in life just like me because we are both Arians (both born under the month of April) but a little bit older just like my wife (damn, my wife’s gonna kill me if she reads this). We both work on the same industry but I actually brag him in to that first because I knew since the very start that this guy is one hell of a genius when it comes to rapport and sensible communication.

But what’s basically inside the drinking session? Well not that much I guess, just few talks (Tagalog at the beginning and ends up with English conversation with a HIK!!!) about our lives, careers, plans and other things that has been happening right now. I find our every session pretty funny yet meaningful for we usually talks about his angels, ex-angels and angels soon to be.. hahahaha!!! I fully understand him on that aspect for I can see that he also thinks about his future (I guess having a family of his own), yet it seems that this big buddy of mine is very much responsible that he can’t dare to leave his family just for his own sake and I definitely salute him for that. Well, sometimes we also start things up with some jamming session but it’s just usual when he brings his guitar with him. Limitations? I guess just for 3 Muchos (term for big bottle of red horse) and we are good on that, not "drunk" but just GOOD. Damn, I really miss those times but I am a man of peace and I don’t want to get myself into trouble with my wife so I guess I just have to give way right now, until…. I dunno.

I just hope that my buddy will not gonna get tired of asking me if I’m available for a drink for I know one day, time will come that we will have this session happen again and I’m definitely sure that he will have more stories when that time comes. I don’t think 3 Muchos will be good enough for this so I just have to get ready when that BIG EVENT FOR THE BEER DRINKING CONTEST between the two of us comes.

Padawan and the Retail Master

Starting today, I'm counting 5 days more and I'm going to lose a very special friend and a mentor. A person who added things in my Book of Principles "Should Be" and a person who invades my mind with his powerful words. Nope he is not a preacher and I don't think he will ever be =). I considered this person a stranger at first for I don't really know him that much and I don't think I will ever have a chance to meet him personally for he lives on the other side of the world. Yet, he proves to me that distance is not a hindrance for him to teach me THE GREAT SECRETS OF RETAIL and divulge me most of the things he knew about the reality of our work. Well, I was able to get along with this person for we share same attitude at sometime plus he always tells me stories about our Grand Masters wanna be… =), just kidding.
Honestly, I don’t really get the point why companies sometimes take the risk of loosing such great people like him, replacing with someone cheaper. I remember he quoted me the words "If you think experts are expensive then wait ‘til you see how much new people will cost you" which is absolutely right. I mean, is it really part of their knowledge about business to lose people with real great minds and expertise and tend to those people with no idea about their work at all? Well, maybe because I am not a businessman or a person who studied management that’s why I don’t really get the point of this.
But either way, even if I personally voice out my points regarding this, I don’t think people on higher management will listen to me, probably because I’m just one voice who never understand the reasons behind this principle. Plus the fact that it will never change the reality of this world and one of this is that this great man that I’m referring to will be out of this company just because of company’s decision. I don’t really feel good at all about this although this friend of mine already told me that he will always keep in touch. But for me it is still different knowing that I’m working with him on some of our cases, having a chat every now and then about things regarding our company.
And to you my friend, I wish you good luck on your next journey and hopefully this "PADAWAN" can become a real GREAT MASTER like you.